You can't be that naive!

 Yesterday I spent  some time on the phone with a friend..  The only friend who knows of my up bringing! she knows who I was then, and who I am now.  And truthfully, she would most likely say, I am that same person today.  Moving forward -  I was loathing in self pity;  And she said to me..  "Brenda, you can't be that naive to think you're  the only one  who had a tough childhood!?"  Well, she pulled me right out of it! and quick!..  right out of my own self pity.  I've been hearing those 5 words over and over since our chat.  

*It inspired this blog post*

You can't be that naive.  From that point of view how could I possibly go on loathing?! I couldn't.  She shaped me right up. Yes, things were tough..  But that's the past, why do I keep reliving it as if it is somehow affecting my life today.  NEWS FLASH! it's what many of us do. 

It's as if we want a reason to be sad.  A reason to not succeed.  I can only speak for myself, but I do believe this has been my battle.  I know I'm not good enough.  But yet I know I am!  But not really.. ok, maybe.  Well, sometimes!  Like with support I can be good enough.  But not all on my own.  I could never be the center of attention, It's been tried, I bomb!  My life is too weird..  I'm too weird!  I can't get out there in front of people, this is the best I can do.  

How are others doing it?  Why can't I be like them?  but I don't want to be like them.  I want to be like me..  But "me" is flawed.  Yet...   

I can't be that naive to think I'm the only one who has ever had a tough childhood,  the only one who has ever been divorced,  the only one who has ever had cancer, the only one who has ever had their life altered unfairly, the only one who cries, the only one who is and feels so alone is this world.  No..  I'm not that naive.  But perhaps I'm that selfish!  and so self centered that I can only think of myself.  And that's exactly what it is!  It's selfishness! it's me ism.

I never thought of myself as selfish, but..  perhaps we all are.  Those that are always complaining about their trails & tribulations. They probably don't see it either.. but it is a form of me ism.  I've no suggestions on how to fix this.  But for me..  I honestly want to stop it! I want to stop all the negative thoughts, living in the past..  Thinking/feeling/behaving/believing I'm not good enough; Because..   I  know deep down inside I am.   I don't wish to be naive!💕  

We live in a time where everyone compares everything from job status to who's sicker than who..  everyone want's to share their pity.  The pity stage just isn't big enough for the entire world.  Many others have gone before me.. Having to overcome challenges  AND they have prevailed.  So.. why can't I? and why can't you?  what makes us so special that the world must feel sorry for us. 

We!...  can't be that naive!  to think that we are the only one's who have ever fallen on tough times.   I encourage you to be strong💪this day!  I will as well. (((hugs))) 💞

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